Thursday, 13 October 2016

Tanah Terbiar

Pada suatu ketika dahulu di dalam sebuah hutan belantara terdapat sebuah kampung yang bernama Kampung Pening Amat. Kampung ini terletak jauh di pedalaman dan tersorok dari manusia dan bak kata orang-orang tua, kampung ini adalah tempat jin bertendang. Ini kerana kampung ini dikatakan agak keras dan mistik. Ramai yang telah diganggu makluk halus apabila melalui jalan ke Kampung Pening Amat ini. Di dalam kampung ini, terdapat seorang anak muda yang begitu hebat dan mahsyur bernama Salam. Salam merupakan seorang anak muda yang baru sahaja berhijrah ke Kampung Pening Amat dari sebuah kampung yang jauh dari situ. Namun begitu, orang-orang di Kampung Pening Amat belum kenal akan Salam kecuali beberapa orang sahaja. Salam seorang yang agak pemalu dan pendiam jika dia belum mengenali seseorang itu tetapi apabila masa berganti masa, Salam merupakan seorang yang amat mudah didekati dan suka membantu orang lain.

Di dalam Kampung Pening Amat ini terdapat sebuah tanah terbiar yang telah usang dan rosak. Tanah terbiar ini juga merupakan kawasan tanah yang terbesar di kampung itu. Ramai yang telah cuba untuk memulihkan tanah terbiar itu namun semuanya telah gagal. Malah Ketua Kampung Pening Amat juga telah buntu mencari jalan untuk menghidupkan kembali tanah terbiar itu. Kalau diikutkan pada sejarah, kawasan tanah terbiar itu asalnya merupakan sebuah kawasan perdagangan yang begitu hebat di waktu dahulu namun kini segala kejayaan itu telah lenyap dan hilang ditelan arus zaman. Ketua Kampung Pening Amat telah cuba berkali-kali untuk memulihkan keadaan di kawasan tanah terbiar itu namun setiap kali dia mencuba, dia tidak berjaya. Ketua Kampung Pening Amat merupakan seorang yang begitu hebat dan sangat sayang akan kampung dan orang-orang kampungnya. Ketua Kampung Pening Amat juga mempunyai beberapa orang kanan yang dinamakan bendahara namun mereka juga telah dipenghujung jalan yang buntu. Disebabkan oleh kegagalan tanah terbiar ini, namanya telah rosak dan busuk dan dipandang rendah oleh kampung-kampung yang berdekatan.

Apabila Salam tiba di Kampung Pening Amat, orang-orang kampung yang tahu tentang Salam telah memujuk Salam menawarkan diri sebagai pengurus baharu kawasan tanah terbiar itu. Pada mulanya Salam enggan menawarkan diri kerana di Kampung Pening Amat belum ada yang tahu mengenai dirinya. Dia hendak memulakan hidup yang baharu dan mencuba benda yang baharu di situ tetapi kerana ingin menjaga hati sahabat-sahabatnya, Salam telah pergi menawarkan diri dan menghadiri sesi pemilihan sebagai pengurus kawasan tanah terbiar tersebut. Pada sesi pemilihan itu, Salam masih belum terbuka hati dan telah mendiamkan diri sepanjang pemilihan tersebut. Banyak yang telah difikirkan oleh Salam. "Bagaimana dengan keluarga aku? Bagaimana dengan tanggungjawab aku?" Soalan-soalan ini telah bermain di fikiran Salam sewaktu dia mengikuti sesi pemilihan itu. Pada ketika itu, Salam baharu sahaja menerima berita bahawa ayahnya telah jatuh sakit di kampung asalnya. Oleh itu, Salam tidak mahu mengambil jawatan pengurus itu kerana takut dia akan melepaskan batuk di tangga.

Seminggu telah berlalu daripada sesi pemilihan itu dan sewaktu Salam sedang menziarahi ayahnya yang sedang sakit, Salam telah mendapat berita bahawa orang-orang Kampung Pening Amat telah memilihnya menjadi penolong pengurus di kawasan tanah terbiar tersebut. Walaupun Salam berat hati untuk meninggalkan ayahnya namun oleh kerana tanggungjawab, dia bergegas pulang ke Kampung Pening Amat untuk berjumpa dengan orang-orang kampung. Apabila dia tiba di situ, semua orang-orang kampung telah berkumpul dan Salam adalah orang terakhir untuk tiba. Salam berasa amat segan dan malu kerana lebih lewat dari yang lain sedangkan dia sebenarnya seorang ketua di situ. Pada beberapa bulan yang pertama, Salam telah berjauhan dan tidak mampu untuk memberikan tumpuan sepenuhnya kepada anak-anak buahnya di Kampung Pening Amat. Dia terpaksa mengembara keluar jauh dari Kampung Pening Amat untuk menziarahi ayahnya yang masih sakit. Pada waktu ini, sudah ada beberapa orang-orang kampung yang tidak yakin akan Salam dan mempunyai pandangan buruk terhadapnya.

Beberapa bulan telahpun berlalu namun tidak ada banyak perbezaan yang berlaku pada tanah terbiar tersebut. Tiba-tiba, pengurus tanah terbiar itu memberitahu orang-orang kampung yang beliau akan mengundurkan diri dan ingin memberi peluang kepada orang lain untuk mengusahakan tanah terbiar itu. Apabila berita ini tersebar, ramai orang-orang kampung yang turut ingin mengundur diri kerana sudah tidak percaya akan pemulihan kawasan tanah terbiar itu. Salam juga telah nekad untuk mengundur diri tetapi pada ketika ini, Salam telah didekati oleh seorang wanita yang amat akrab dengannya. Wanita itu telah memujuk Salam untuk menggantikan tempat pengurus itu demi kebaikan dan semangat sayang akan Kampung Pening Amat. Salam berasa amat berat hati namun dia telah memegang satu azam untuk menggantikan tempat pengurus itu dan memberi suntikan yang baharu. Dia juga tidak mahu mengecewakan sahabat-sahabatnya yang percaya dan bergantung harap padanya. Atas dasar semangat setia kawan, Salam telah berjumpa dengan orang-orang kampung yang masih bersamanya dan memberi semangat pada mereka untuk terus bersama dalam usaha murni mereka ini.

Beberapa minggu yang pertama sebagai pengurus baharu kawasan tanah terbiar ini, Salam telah ditimpa dengan pelbagai jenis masalah. Salam telah dikejutkan dengan berita bahawa lebih dari separuh orang-orang kampung telah putus harapan dan meninggalkan Kampung Pening Amat. Jadi antara tugas pertama Salam adalah untuk mencari orang dari kampung-kampung lain untuk bersama-samanya. Namun tugasan itu bukan satu tugasan yang mudah kerana ramai yang tahu akan kegagalan tanah terbiar ini. Tidak ramai yang ingin bersamanya dan dia tidak ada pilihan tetapi terpaksa merayu-rayu mencari orang untuk menambahkan lagi tenaga di Kampung Pening Amat. Tanpa tenaga kerja dan pasukan yang kuat, Salam tidak mampu bergerak sendirian. Akhirnya, Salam mendapat beberapa penambahan orang kampung namun tidak dapat membuat pilihan. Jumlah yang ingin menjadi orang Kampung Pening Amat terlalu sedikit dan Salam terpaksa menerima kesemuanya. Salam walaubagaimanapun tetap bersyukur kerana ada sedikit penambahan orang-orang kampung.

Tugasan kedua Salam pula adalah untuk melatih orang-orang kampung yang baru ini dengan ilmu-ilmu yang ada pada Salam. Pada ketika ini, Salam hanya mempunyai dirinya sendiri dan beberapa sahabat rapat sahaja. Ketua Kampung Pening Amat berasa amat gembira dan berbangga dengan sikap Salam dan kawan-kawannya yang sanggup bertumpah darah demi membangunkan kawasan tanah terbiar tersebut tetapi pada ketika ini, Bendahara Ketua Kampung tidak ambil kisah mengenai Salam dan rakan-rakannya. Bendahara ini lebih gemar dan sayang akan pengurus yang lama. Salam dan kawan-kawannya tidak menjadikan itu sebagai halangan dan terus bergerak kehadapan. Salam dan kawan-kawannya berpegang pada satu prinsip iaitu genggam bara api biar sampai jadi arang. Salam tidak suka akan kegagalan dan jika dia gagal sekalipun, dia ingin melalakukan yang terbaik terlebih dahulu. Salam dan sahabat-sahabatnya ingin membuktikan bahawa mereka mampu membawa perubahan dan mampu membuat suatu perkara yang gagal dibuat oleh ramai sebelum mereka.

Hari berganti-ganti, musim berlalu pergi, sedikit demi sedikit kawasan tanah terbiar tersebut telah membangun dan nampak jelas perbezaannya. Dari sebuah kawasan yang usang dan rosak, kini tanah terbiar tersebut telah menjadi sebuah tanah yang mampu didiami dan menjadi kebanggaan orang-orang di Kampung Pening Amat. Dahulu, orang-orang di Kampung Pening Amat tidak boleh bersatu dan berbincang. Mereka sering bergaduh dan bertengkar antara satu sama yang lain. Mungkin juga kerana di Kampung Pening Amat terdapat 15 jenis etnik dan puak yang berbeza. Ini antara sebab mereka tidak dapat bersatu sebelum ini. Namun, kini semuanya telah berubah dan orang-orang di Kampung Pening Amat walaupun dari etnik dan puak yang berbeza namun mampu mengibarkan satu bendera yang sama. Ketua Kampung Pening Amat begitu berbangga dengan Salam dan sahabat-sahabatnya kerana mampu mengembalikan zaman kegemilangan kawasan tanah terbiar tersebut menjadi sebuah kawasan yang sedang meniti dari bibir ke bibir orang kampung dan juga dari kampung-kampung yang lain.

Pada suatu hari, Salam telah menerima berita mengejut bahawa dia bakal berhijrah ke luar negeri untuk beberapa bulan dan tidak akan dapat meneruskan perjuangannya di Kampung Pening Amat. Lebih teruk lagi apabila seorang sahabat yang bersama-sama dengan Salam dalam usaha membaik pulih kawasan tanah terbiar itu juga akan dihantar ke luar negeri untuk beberapa bulan. Ketua Kampung Pening Amat walaupun risau dan cemas akan kehilangan dua orang yang banyak berjasa pada Kampung Pening Amat ini tetapi dia tetap memberi semangat dan menggalakkan mereka berdua untuk pergi menjelajah di muka bumi Allah yang luas ini. Tidak lama selepas itu, Salam dan sahabatnya telah berhijrah. Walaubagaimanapun, Salam begitu terharu kerana Ketua Kampung Pening Amat begitu berbangga dan menghargai usaha yang mereka telah lakukan untuk Kampung Pening Amat. Bagi Ketua Kampung itu, tanpa penat lelah dan usaha Salam dan sahabat-sahabatnya, kawasan tanah terbiar itu dan Kampung Pening Amat tidak mungkin sama sekali dikembalikan kepada zaman kegemilangannya seperti dahulu.

Namun begitu, dalam setiap kejayaan pasti akan ada manusia yang dengki akan kejayaan kita. Umpama ayam senang dalam reban, musang yang susah beredar keliling. Antara yang paling dengki adalah Bendahara Ketua Kampung kerana dia lebih sayang akan pengurus yang lama dan tidak begitu suka akan Salam. Apabila Salam sudah tidak ada, Bendahara akan memburukkan Salam dan sahabat-sahabatnya pada orang-orang kampung. Dia persoalkan mengapa orang kampung masih teringat akan Salam dan mengapa masih menyebut nama Salam. "Kenapa orang-orang kampung masih sebut nama Salam? Salam sudah tiada!". Ini telah membuatkan beberapa orang kampung sahabat-sahabat setia Salam menjadi tidak selesa namun tidak mampu untuk berkata apa-apa. Belang sebenar Bendahara baru kini dilihat dan dia semakin berkuasa semenjak pemergian Salam dari Kampung Pening Amat. Dia meracuni orang-orang kampung untuk melupakan Salam dan ingin mengubah semua yang telah dibina oleh Salam dan kawan-kawannya. Ini menjadikan kerja Bendahara itu lebih mudah kerana Salam kini berada jauh dari Kampung Pening Amat.

Beberapa orang kampung yang kecewa akan perkara ini telah menceritakan situasi yang kini terjadi di Kampung Pening Amat kepada Salam. Bendahara kini mengambil alih segala kuasa dan oleh kerana dia sudah lama bersama Ketua Kampung, Bendahara itu telah mendapat kepercayaan penuh dari Ketua Kampung Pening Amat. Ini memberi ruang kepada Bendahara itu untuk memegang takhta tertinggi di Kampung Pening Amat. Apabila Salam mengetahui mengenai berita ini, hatinya bagai ditikam, dipijak, digilis. Tidak ada perkataan yang mampu menggambarkan betapa kecewa dan sedihnya Salam pada ketika itu. Segala usaha, titik peluh Salam dan kawan-kawannya lalui bersama musnah begitu sahaja dek kerana sifat tamak seorang manusia bernama Bendahara. Pada zaman Salam dan kawan-kawannya susah, tidak ada sebarang pertolongan yang diterima tetapi apabila Salam dan kawan-kawannya telah berjaya mengembalikan zaman kegemilangan Kampung Pening Amat, mulalah campur tangan pelbagai pihak yang ingin merasa cebisan kejayaan itu walaupun tidak pernah merasa susah itu bersama. Lebih menyedihkan adalah apabila ada sesetengah daripada sabahat-sahabat Salam yang telah termakan dan bersama-bersama dengan Bendahara ini.

Salam yang kini telah berhijrah jauh di perantauan hanya mampu melihat dan membenci di dalam diam. Tidak ada apa-apa yang mampu dibuat. Hanya titisan air mata yang mengalir melihat usahanya dan kawan-kawan dirampas oleh orang-orang yang mempunyai kuasa di tangan. Segala maklumat dan perkembangan mengenai Kampung Pening Amat tidak lagi diberitahu kepada Salam. Bendahara ibarat kacang melupakan kulit membuang Salam dan kawan-kawannya dari sejarah Kampung Pening Amat. Salam sudah bagaikan tidak pernah wujud di Kampung Pening Amat itu. Inilah dia permainan dunia yang fana ini. Semuanya mampu berubah dek kerana wang dan kuasa. Ramai orang yang ingin kaya dan berjaya tanpa berusaha dan akan ada golongan yang tertindas apabila berlakunya rampasan kuasa. Kini barulah Salam sedar akan pengorbanan sebenar yang dilalui oleh nenek moyangnya suatu ketika dahulu. Lembu punya susu, sapi dapat nama. Nenek moyangnya yang berusaha namun hasilnya mengalir ke tangan yang lain. Walau bagaikan retak seribu di hati, kini Salam hanya melihat dari jauh, membisikkan rindu walau lumpuh, membiarkan titik peluhnya runtuh.

*berdasarkan sebuah kisah yang benar

Thursday, 28 April 2016

Sayangku (':

Sabarlah sayangku,

Cuma beberapa minggu lagi akan ku langkah keluar dari tempat ini,
Pergi meninggalkan semua yang pernah aku cintai,
Selepas itu suara ini tidak lagi kau dengari, aku janji.
Yang tinggal cuma kenangan dan ingatan kita di taman ini.

Mungkin aku tidak layak untuk membuka mulutku,
Apatah lagi untuk kita bersua dan bertemu,
Namun pintaku cuma satu dari kamu untuk aku,
Hayatilah kata-kata akhir ini dari aku buat kamu.


Maaf sayangku,

Aku tahu aku bukan yang terbaik buat dirimu,
Banyak cacat cela, terasa hina diri aku,
Namun aku hanya manusia yang tidak semuanya tahu,
Tidak gagah, tidak hebat, tidak sempurna di mata kamu.

Terlalu banyak kesilapan yang telah ku lakukan padamu,
Ada yang jelas, ada juga yang tidak sebegitu,
Aku hanya ingin memohon maaf padamu,
Kalau tak sudi, engkau takkan lagi ku ganggu.


Tenanglah sayangku,

Aku harap kau kan tenang tanpa keliru,
Jangan terlalu sibuk bekerja sehingga alpa kelilingmu,
Jaga diri, jaga hati, jangan lupa Allah yang satu,
Hidup dunia hanya sementara menanti tiba saat waktu.

Titisan air mata bangganya seorang ibu,
Tidak ada yang lebih bernilai di dunia selain itu,
Aku tahu semua yang engkau lakukan hanyalah untuk ibu,
Semoga impian engkau itu menjadi kenyataan buatmu.


Bangunlah sayangku,

Jikalau engkau terjatuh di tengah jalan,
Jangan gusar kerana itulah lumrah kehidupan,
Hidup ini memang akan penuh dengan ujian,
Tetapi Allah tidak akan uji lebih dari kemampuan.

Aku tahu betapa hebatnya kamu,
Hebat sehingga aku terjatuh cinta padamu,
Kejarlah, genggamlah, hayatilah cita-citamu,
Kerna ku yakin kau kan capai semuanya itu.


Sayang,

Sekian sahaja nukilan aku buat kamu,
Nukilan terakhir, air mata menemani aku,
Namun begitu jika engkau perlukan aku,
Aku kan tetap di sisi kamu kerana itu janji aku.


Shafique Danial Johari
28 April 2016
4.30 am

P/S: I love you and I miss you, I miss us so much (':

Saturday, 12 December 2015

The Promise

Dear Love,

Wherever I go and whoever I end up with,
I can't promise that I will never hurt you at all
But I promise that I'll always take care of you
And will never leave you no matter what.

I won't let anything harm you or pull you down
I'll bring you up when you're feeling down
Wipe your tears if they're flowing down
I know you'll do the same for me deep down

Together we make a powerful duo
We face our problems as a team
With intelligence and grace we conquer
This I promise you.

My Love,

You'll be the finest wife ever to me
The best mother my kids could ever ask for
I want the world to know how lucky I am
To be proud and finally say you're mine

I'll kiss your forehead every morning
And whisper in your ears those magic words
The sweetest words are only for you
Because no one deserves it more than you

I pray one day we'll get old together
And travel the world just the two of us
I can't imagine of anything better
Than the love we have, I cherish forever

The Promise - SD.



Saturday, 25 July 2015

You Have Always Been, And Will Always Stay

People say, 

That liking someone will die someday
Because only true love is there to stay
But I've tried to forget and fail till today
There's something special about you I must say

Looks is not what I fell for per say
The beauty of your heart and everything you say
Your wisdom and kindness amazes me till today
Hoping my kids to be like you someday

Trying to look for another you today
But some people aren't replaceable as they claim to say
A one a million that comes your way
And you hoped that it will forever stay

God's plans are powerful so never play
Put up your hands and to Him you pray
Some are just destined to stay the whole way
But there're a few that'll fly one day

To say it's pleasure is definitely no way
But sometimes things just don't do your way
If you're safe, happy & good you say
I shall accept and smile and leave it that way

Doesn't mean that I have stopped to pray
But your happiness is what I shall pray today
Even though it's not what I wanted but hey 
Our friendship is something that I will never betray

One fine day I shall return to say
That you have always been and will always stay
As that magical spark that built me today
But for now it's time to walk away


Monday, 23 March 2015

Stars

I was laying down on the grass tonight looking up into the sky and all I saw were the stars that light up the dark cold night. It made me wonder how amazing that such a small thing like that could turn the whole dark sky bright. I laid down, started to ponder on life and I realised that even in our life, there are stars that light up our days and make a huge difference to us. Everyone will definitely have a special star that means the world to us. A star that can turn your world around and make you forget of all the challenges and miseries in life. Whenever we feel like there is no longer hope for us to go on, a star will always make sure that we keep on going until the end. Because our star believes in us so much that sometimes they believe in us more than they believe in themselves. A star that will do anything and will sacrifice their life for us no matter what the consequences are. The feeling of having a star around us is just too sweet and indescribable. No words can explain the feeling of it but as humans we are always so greedy and ungrateful. We tend to neglect the things around us to look for something better when actually the ones who really matter have always been right there beside us no matter how bad we have treated them. Those gems are the stars in our life. They rarely happen and they rarely appear in our lifetime but once they are gone, only then will we realize how much we miss them and how much it meant to us. All I can say is that some people pass through this world and leave it as they found it but stars like them take time to do special things that make the world more beautiful. To be honest, I just miss having you around.


Tuesday, 4 February 2014

Distance Makes The Heart Grow Fonder

It's 2014 and I'm turning 21 this year. Apart from the excitement to register as a legit voter for the next GE, 2014 also means that it has been 8 years since I moved out of home. It was in January 2006 that I first started my life outside independently. Although it was close to home, approximately 15 mins away but when you spend more days away from rather than at home, you are basically out. It was a tough thing to swallow at first and honestly until today, there will always be a part of my heart that misses home at every second of every day because when I lived away from home, I never got to do the things I used to do when I was at home during primary years. I would kiss, hug and ask for my parents blessings before I walk out of the door every morning. Those are among the things I do when I was at home and I still remember those days very clearly in my head, it feels like yesterday.

I would love to be at home right now as I am writing this post. In fact I really miss those times when I would come home from school and I would just throw myself onto the couch and catch up with my favourite tv series and stuff but things have changed now. The days when I used to be comfortable living at home, where you don't have to think about the electricity and food because everything is well taken care off is all nothing but a sweet memory to me. Our parents will ensure that we have enough of everything and they want to make sure that they give the best for their kids. But do give our best to make sure that they are happy?

Ask ourselves today, when we are out on our own living independently, how often do we check on them. Calling them & asking them if they are okay and if they are happy? I am quite sure that the majority of us will only call our parents only to ask for money when we realize that we only have a couple of bucks left. Even if they try to get in touch with us, we would prefer to talk and hangout with friends or lovers instead rather than spending our time talking to them. Some even feel embarrassed to talk or show their love to his or her parents in public. What a shame.

Is this how we repay our parents after their years of sacrifice for us? By having all these negative ego inside of us and neglecting them most of the time. How many times do we actually call them just to ask if they are doing fine? These are among the problems with the younger society in today's world. Young people are more keen towards playing with their gadgets that they tend to forget where those gadgets came from. It is sad to see the situation to be like this today.

As for myself, I feel that when I am away from home and when I can't see my parents everyday I tend to appreciate them more. Missing them makes me love them more. When I am alone and I think of those times, tears would fall and my heart just stops. But I tell myself that this is the road I've chosen and Allah knows what's best for us. We just have to believe, have faith, pray and ask Him for the strength to move forward because our parents will always and always pray for us.

Always remember that each second that we waste means one second wasted to be with our parents. They won't be here forever and we should show our love for them while they are still here with us. Don't wait until the very last moment because we never know when their time is up on earth. God can take lives anytime, anywhere. So let us all turn a new leaf and put in extra effort to care about our parents. No matter how busy we are, try to spend some time with them because they're the only parents we've got. Cherish them (':

I love you Mama & Abah. Forever & always...

Monday, 13 May 2013

Twenty and more to come

During these finals hours of being a teenager, I try to look back on what I've done this past 20 years. The good and the bad, the laughter and the cries, the triumphs and the failures and every single episode of it has been a wonderful journey that has taught me to become a better person in life. So here it goes, a short and simple story of a young Malaysian boy named Shafique Danial who was born on a wonderful Friday afternoon, the 14th of May 1993 at the Kapiolani Medical Centre in Honolulu, Hawaii.

I would like to start by talking about my primary school years that was full of fun and amazing memories. I went to this huge green school on top of a hill in Bandar Sri Damansara and that's when my life started because I can't really remember my kindergarten days that much. I was not the no1 student but I always tried my best to stay in the top class all the way through 6th grade. I had such amazing friends and those were the times when we played like there was no tomorrow. What me and my friends were excited the most about school was Recess! At that time, we had 2 recess sessions. One was in the morning and one during lunch time. Every time when the bell rang the boys and some of the girls too, would head off to the field to play football. We played in our uniforms and some even wore a tie and vest because they were prefects and that includes me. When recess was over we would all go back to our classrooms all sweaty and sticky and we would all aim for the aircond. And almost everyday without fail, we would get scolding from our teacher Pn Jamilah but that didn't stop us from playing football everyday single day. Everything was worth it in the end because at the end of our primary years, all of us did quite well for our UPSR examinations. I got a straight 5A's so I went to a boarding school for my high school, SMKA Kuala Lumpur.

During the first year of my high school years in SMKA Kuala Lumpur, it was pure hell. Everyone knew I was homesick but who cares, try getting into my shoes and try to adapt yourself. It was tough because I had to make a 360' change as I had to adapt from a private school environment into not only a boarding school but also a religious boarding school. I had to learn so many new things there and there is just so much that a 13 year old boy can take but thanks to the tremendous support system I had behind me, I made it through just fine. I always had wonderful family and friends who supported me the whole way and they were always giving me the motivation and support to stay in school. It was no doubt a good school that taught me a lot of new things. Things that I can never learn if I didn't spend my 5 years in high school at SMKA Kuala Lumpur. If there is one person to thank for insisting me to stay in this good school, it is my dad. He really believed that that was the best for me and I must be strong. He knew that I was strong enough and I could go through it from the very beginning that's why he insisted that I should stay there. He knew it was going to be a tough ride for me during that 5 years so he supported me like crazy till the very end. Proven, I don't think I will be where I am today if I did not go through the 5 years in this boarding school. Those valuable lessons about life which I learned there was just so valuable. I entered high school as a boy and 5 years later, I left as a man who had a good head on his shoulders.

Everything that starts will eventually come to an end and so did high school. My friends and I, we went our own separate ways and there were some of my friends who went on to further their studies abroad while the rest stayed in Malaysia. I on the other hand was offered a place in UiTM Melaka to do a Business Diploma. I accepted the offer and so I started my university life in the mid of 2011. But along the way, there were also times when I worked to gain experiences and nothing more. This was also an important part of my life that made me who I am today. It all started when my uncle asked me what I was planning to do during my holidays and he said why not I come over to his friend's office because they needed some help, and I said okay. I still remember the first day I entered office. I was dressed up in a purple long sleeves shirt and a black slacks looking nerdy to the max. My first job was to find certain articles in the newspaper then cut them and send them to my manager. I was also the one who would replace the water dispenser when it was empty and also the guy who carries the boxes and arranges stuff the office. That job description then became better and better and my responsibilities grew as time went by. Soon, I found myself in a place where not many 19 year olds have been. Sometimes I do feel like I'm dreaming but thanks to the wonderful people I have in my office, I tend to learn fast and that allows me to progress better every time. They are really helpful and will always help me when I'm stuck or out of ideas.

I may not be the best kid on the planet but I think I did just fine and I'm proud to be standing at where I am right now. I am not a great person but the people around me helps me become a better person each day. I learn from them everyday and I won't stop learning from them until my last breath of life. I always believe that my mistakes are more important than my victories because we learn from mistakes and not from victories. As the saying goes, we learn from failures and not from success. If I have the chance to go back in time to adjust what I've done, I think I would take the same old route and not change a single part of it. It was not a bed of roses but it was not that thorny either. And so here is my thank you list that actually has no ending to be honest.

Thank you,

Mama & Abah for your endless love, support and everything these past 20 years.
My 2 Brothers who gets on my nerve 24/7 but I still love them.
Arwah Tokdad & Tokmi who taught me how to reach for your goals and always strive for excellence.
Atok & Opah who will always remind me that education is everything and I'll never forget Opah's story about her studying under the lampu minyak tanah, a great motivational story indeed.
Uncles & Aunties who treat me like their own child every single time.
Cousins who are my bestfriends until I die.

Pakngah who first brought me into the working world and taught me that you're right when you're right and you're wrong when you're wrong.
Zee Kin who is like a big brother to me who will show me the right path and tell me when I'm wrong.
Everyone at my office and everyone I've worked with who knows how to work hard and play hard.

Haniff Rosli & Faridd Mirzan who are my bros forever although we have a total opposite political view but that doesn't stop us from becoming great friends.
Shafiqa Nadira who is my best friend/sister at the same time and will point out my every mistake but I know it's because she cares.
My schoolmates who are crazy and hyper at every hour of the day.
My classmates who are all amazing in their own ways.
My De'Best family who have been supporting me & the team all these while.
My teachers & lecturers who have been supplying educational information into my brain.

And everyone I've met these past 20 years. I thank you all so much for becoming a part of my life and I will cherish each and everyone of you forever. Without you, my life would just be a dark road heading no where.